I broke up with my boyfriend in early January. We’d been having problems, constant fighting and grew tired and ended things officially.
I was heartbroken.
I cried and I put things he’d given me into a box, which I shoved under my wardrobe, only to take them all out again and cry once more over our memories. All I wanted to do was lie on my sofa with a tv show/film on, sweets, a box of tissues and a blanket.
However, when I feel sad, I usually watch something Colin Morgan related, and I had watched all of my Colin Morgan related stuff with my boyfriend. So that was a no-go. I knew that I was going to see Mojo on the 11th January- so, I decided to do a little research on the rest of the cast. I read through the cast’s imdb profiles, Ben Whishaw’s last.
I was impressed by the amount of things he’d been in and the actual films/tv shows, as I hadn’t heard of nearly any of them. So, I decided to put Mr. Whishaw to the test; I would watch one of his films and then when I saw Mojo, make notes upon the difference between his camera and theatre acting.
Following week, I fell ill to my dismay, and decided to simply put one of Ben Whishaw’s films on my laptop and lie in bed and probably fall asleep. The film I chose was Perfume.
15 minutes into that film, I was sat bolt upright and wide awake and in complete awe of Ben Whishaw and Tom Tywker. Perfume was like nothing I had ever seen before and I loved it.
Then I had to return to school. Where I was going through ( and still am) an awful time. I hated school, I hated the people in my drama class, I hated pretty much everything about myself and the way my life was shaping out. On top, I felt like my friends were choosing my ex-boyfriends ‘side’, I was moaning all the time and I was being bullied for my sexual orientation and whatnot. I would put up a brave face, but internally be breaking. I would go home at every opportunity, I would escape class and sit in the toilets, crying; I was at a really low stage.
During my time at home, hiding in the toilets and after school, I found myself watching Ben Whishaw films and reading and watching every interview I could get my hands on. I watched The Trench, My Brother Tom, Ready When You Are Mr. McGill, Criminal Justice, Brideshead Revisited, Bright Star, Love Hate, The Tempest, Cloud Atlas, The Hour as well as tracking down clips from the various theatre performances he has been in. In interviews I would hungrily absorb his words and views. I found that I shared a lot of his perspectives and enjoyed watching and listening to him.
Ben Whishaw is the most talented and versatile actor I have ever come across. My admiration for him goes far beyond his physical looks - he is absolutely beautiful - but he is a beautiful actor, even more so than his physical being. And every single dream and daydream I’ve had about him, has simply been either working with him as an fellow actor or director, or meeting him as a fan. I admire him so, so much. (And it saddens me that everyone simply thinks I admire him for looks and laughs at me for even finding him attractive at all.)
As for Colin Morgan~ my admiration for him will always be here. Merlin was there dutifully every week whilst I grew up and went through some shit times. Colin Morgan will always be the first actor I’ve ever truly looked up to and wanted to follow in the footsteps of. Never fear for my love for that man.
Sorry for the essay, anon <3
Okay, this is actually what you do if you’re being sexually harassed in any kind of public space. Draw attention to it, preferably pull away and let EVERYONE know that someone is touching you. This will not only get him to get off you but he’ll definitely think about this situation next time he wants to do something like this.
Spreading the word.
My mom and I were talking about this today after hearing about a woman who was molested on a plane who said nothing until she was picked up at the airport by her parents. My mom looked at me and asked what I would do in that situation and I looked her dead in the eye and I told her “it would take me .02 seconds to realize what was going on and yell angrily, and then I would be straight on to bitch slapping him so hard he wouldn’t be able to see the punch I’d throw with the opposite hand”.
She nodded and accepted my salty language like a seasoned sailor.
I’ve had experience with this before, in Prague a group of five girls and I were followed by three men at night. After a while they started yelling at us, the most common being “how much?” Meaning how much we “cost” as prostitutes. Seeing as they weren’t going to stop, I turned on my heel, faced them (which surprised them), spat at their feet and responded with “You couldn’t afford me.” This prompted the other girls to start yelling back at them as well, starting with our spitfire Czech friend to start slinging curses in Czech as she and the rest of the girls came up beside me. Needless to say the men backed off and pretty much fled. They weren’t expecting a fight. It empowered me and encouraged the rest of the girls to yell back too.
I’ve heard that a lot of people don’t know what to do in this situation because they’ve been taught all their lives to be polite and non-aggressive. Keep your heads down or whatever.
Keep in mind that studies have shown that rapists look for victims who won’t fight back.
Remember that nobody has the right to touch you without your consent or harass you, and you have all the right to make the biggest fuss about it that you can possibly make.
Get angry. Be in command.
Where is your tattoo?
Viggo Mortensen: Not in the same place as theirs! We all got the same one - the word “nine” in Elvish - because that’s what we are, nine. I visited the tattooist a couple times, showed him the drawing and stuff. I didn’t say anything about Ian McKellen or whoever may be coming in. He just did it. We did all meet one morning and it was an interesting event, and I enjoyed it. Half a day. Actually everyone showed up. It goes along with all the other scars we got!
Ian McKellen: It did rather surprise me- I didn’t think I’d ever have a tattoo: I’ve never been pierced. but I am now. It’s on display during Dance of Death, if you want to see it - I take my shirt off on the Broadway stage, and it’ll cost you $70.
Who was first?
Billy Boyd: Me. It was Dom’s [Dominic Monaghan] idea, but once we got to the tattoo parlor, there was a lot of “Where are we going to have it?”
Sean Astin: There was a lot of fear.
Boyd: Sean held my hand. It’s actually quite soft.
Dominic Monaghan: It was a guy called Roger at Roger’s Tattoo Parlor in Wellington. He didn’t open on Sunday, but we only had a day off on a Sunday. After we all came together and committed to this idea, I think Viggo rang him. He told him, “We know you don’t open on a Sunday, we’ll make it worth your while.” We all turned up there, I think at 11:00, and it was a real party atmosphere. We were all taking photos and writing in diaries. It was one of my favorite days in New Zealand, I think. I’ll show you [mine], because these guys have theirs on their foot. [Lifts shirt to show shoulder blade.]
Boyd: Of course, we got the tattoos about a week before we finished [shooting], and I wasn’t really thinking ahead…so we still had a week to [spend with] these prosthetic feet! And I had the tattoo and so did Sean. They had to glue [the feet] on - quite painful.
Monaghan: I was just thinking, you guys got it on your foot, and Orlando got it on his forearm and he’s a bowman and he’s always using his forearm. I was using a sword a lot.
Can we see it?
Orlando Bloom: [rolling up shirt sleeve] We don’t want to show it if we don’t have to, we rather like to keep it amongst the nine of us in a way, it’s our own personal thing. It was designed by [Conceptual Artist] Alan Lee. I took Sean Bean down to a tattoo parlor in New York about a month and a half ago, because he was not in New Zealand when we got ours. So we got his [done] downtown. There were nine of us, nine tattoos. But maybe [New Line Cinema Executive Producer] Mark Ordesky will get one - he was number 10!
Elijah Wood: I can show you now, can’t I? Because it’s off-camera. [Lifts shirt, shows tattoo is on waist]
How’d you pick that spot?
Wood: I don’t know…it just felt right. It felt like the right place to put it.